For some reason I can easily give others advice but then when it comes to myself I’m stuck on this continuous cycle that I’m sick of being on. The cycle was basically knowing what I should be thinking but thinking the complete opposite.
I’ve always been told, be more positive… I am positive trust me… But for a long time I believed that there’s a certain level of positivity one teen (like myself) could have. Having so many knock backs that hammer down your self confidence is tiring enough and then having to be positive at the same time honestly was a lot.
I was so easily stressed and negative thoughts came to me easier than breathing. I didn’t want to trouble anyone with “pointless feelings”. The only way I can describe how I felt was “Tired”. I was over everything and constantly tired of life in general. This may seem selfish to people but there were times when I really didn’t care anymore. I was just done, I felt alone and tired of trying so god damn hard. However, this quote from Finding Dory helped me a lot to conquer the negative things I was told and the negative things I felt and thought. I know it may seem crazy as it’s just an animated film… In all honesty though, I just thought why do I have to feel like I need to give up? Why do I have to feel like I’m not good enough? And if others can fight through what life throws at them and they can keep going then why can’t I?
I could not relate to this more. The barriers we put up stop us from having a life we all deserve.
I went to an audition earlier this week that I’m still awaiting a reply from (so everyone keep their fingers crossed for me haha). In all fairness though, I don’t mind the outcome of this, whether it is a “yes or no”! Either way I’m happy I did it. I’m happy I pushed myself forward to something I know I want to do. Im happy I put all my past situations out the window for this one thing to see what my future may hold. I’m happy I went out of my comfort zone. I’m happy that I thought positively and did my thing. This was a massive hurdle I overcame with regards to my self confidence and knowing my ability within my craft. Honestly, afterwards it made me so relieved I actually slept as soon as I got back to the hotel until the morning because I was finally over the moon I did something that made me happy for myself. I proved to myself I can do anything when you put your mind to it. (Regardless let’s just hope it’s a yes haha! Touch as much wood as possible and shout to as many stars for me)
Why is positivity so important? Because those who are positive feel more content with their lives. A positive attitude honestly brings you so far in this short life we’re living in. I learnt the process is actually a domino effect in terms of our overall health and that it is so beneficial because it eliminates any stress and unnecessary dramas.
I’m happy with where I am at this moment in time. I’m happy with just being me and I’m so thankful to all the love and support I have been given. It’s been tough and have had a lot of wobbles along the way but I can finally say I’m happy and I can do this.
Anyways why pretend? I would rather you just tell me straight… but anyways to those people who pretended they cared when they really didn’t… My darlings, I never asked for your support but you learn who your real friends are when you need them most. Thank you for teaching me a valuable lesson on how to spot people like you. I’m happy you’re all out of my life or gradually leaving my life at this very moment.
MOVING FORWARD IS MY NEXT STEP IN THIS LONG PATH TO SUCCESS.
A POSTIVE MIND = A POSITIVE LIFE and that is what I shall achieve.
BTW don’t ever judge someone by their social media or how they come across on your first meeting because you never ever know what’s going on behind closed doors. Smile and be nice to everyone because everyone has their own little stories. Think positively because you never know what opportunities lay around the corner waiting for you.
Remember you are you and don’t let anyone change a thing about you and don’t ever think about things you’ve done in the past because regret is pointless. Those “things” that happened make us stronger. You only know how strong you are until being strong is all you can be and that is when you know you can do anything. Don’t let anyone stop you reaching for your goals.
Life is full of surprises and I can’t wait for the next thing it throws at me…
bring it on! Super excited for my next step in my positive atmosphere and life and for those who will be joining me on this journey.