Update 101

I haven’t really been doing any blogs recently. Been a bit hectic in the life of Imogen Helen Szecowka. Would you believe that? #dramafollowsmeeverywhere

Anyways today I thought I’d write a blog about respect. Because I think that’s the main cause of unhappiness. I know with me it was. Yes I have done a similar blog to this before but I thought I’d go back to this subject.

With the lack of respect you have for yourself makes other people have no respect for you due to the way you portray yourself. Making yourself feel good physically is only one way to start to respect yourself fully. If you don’t like yourself, no one will end up liking you, it’s a vicious cycle. Respect can be with the mind not just presentation. For example, if you don’t respect the fact that you deserve happiness (that you believe you don’t ever deserve happiness because of past choices/mistakes) then all that will do is create an unhappy and negative life. Why do that when life gives you so many options?

I’m the type of person that always ends up in “almost relationships”, in “social media/texting relationships” and or “broken relationships” but what I’ve realised now, is that it’s not my fault. It really isn’t. I always get mugged off because I give a million chances and when I want a chance I never get one. I always get screwed over because my kindness towards others gets manipulated which ends up in my mind having no respect for myself because I let myself believe I am not worthy. I let that be the only way I should be treated. I’m the type of girl who tries to see the best in everyone and everything. I ignore the shattered pieces and focus solely on what’s left.

I have a front people who know me know too well… “princess imogen”

It’s easy to pretend to be something you’re not but in the end it just haunts you.

I’m the type of person that wants to spread happiness and positivity even when I don’t think I deserve it myself.

In reality, everyone deserves a piece.

I’m the kind of person that likes to fix what’s broken instead of leaving it to be a lost cause… in the end I forget about myself.

This brings us back to respect. I lost respect for myself mentally because I tried to help others who didn’t want to be helped. I tried to love others who didn’t want to be loved. I thought I’d get positivity and happiness given back in return yet in the end when that was not the case I believed that I should never expect anything in return when you do good.

I don’t want anyone to believe this, as it is not true. Love is to give but also to take. Never be scared to take when it comes to love (friend, family or anyone).

Appreciate yourself and everything around you, no matter how little or how much you have. Honour and praise yourself for how far you’ve come in respects to your life mentally and physically.

I am not ashamed of who I was and how I am now. I know many people have abused my kindness in the past and many may attempt to do so in the future. But you have to stay true to yourself. Take good care of your body and mind.

Keep smiling and move forwards. Because why the hell not?

Remember to love yourself before loving anyone else.

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